Not for me.

I swear on my life I want to just land on luck right now. I want that big man job. That job that will pay me more than well, that job that I will do extra hours for because of my passion for it, that job that I will be proud to represent. THAT f*cking job.
This crave for success is driving me crazy. I just want it all for my parents. To give back. To show my appreciation, my thanks and my love for everything they've done for me. To take them shopping without looking at price tags. To not worry about bills every month. In fact to not worry about money at all. I just want it all for them.
I want to give them the easy life. No stress. No worries. It's the least I can do.
I need to focus! I'm 22 working as part time in retail! This is not my life! I refuse to be trapped and stuck with this safe option. I need to make it happen. I promise I will.

KEEP FIT!! WERRKKK ITT!!

Lately with my spare time I've been doing lots of work out routines, even jogging at 8am! But it's supposed to wake you up after a good run, I dunno if it's just me or not but I go straight back to bed and I am knocked out! When I wake up I'll do some crunches, squats and leg rise exercises throughout the day. It's only been a week or two but I have been doing something everyday and I could honestly see some changes!! Like a 2 pack forming on my abs..kinda scary to be honest because I don't want to be looking all hench lol too manly for me! >< But I want that solid belly! Just no 6 pack though =/  Anyway.. the slightest improvement has made me happy and I'm so surprised to see the effects in such a short time! But yay..gets me motivated more!

The beginning I was so rubbish at any activity, my stamina and motivation was none existent! But as it went on I managed to do more without being so out of breath so quickly haha, I think I may just even be able to run for the bus without being in such a huff and puff! So proud of myself lol! I'm actually starting to enjoy doing at least half hour of workout now anddd I want to start eating healthy! Let my insides feel good too :)

Saw this video of a 70 year old woman who is a vegan (not that I would give up meat) but she looked
  a m a z i n g  for her age! Have a look yourself..
Here's the link - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj7dhoHpyss

Running around the river is so much better than being cooped up in the gym though, it's also the cheaper option! No point in joining gym if I just use the treadmill. I wouldn't swim in my local area, I'm too self conscious for that and sauna..well I could just do that in my bathroom lol

On that last note; keep fit ladies! Feel good, look good! :)

GUT.

So I left my intern a week ago and I honestly feel it is one of the best choices I've made. I was asking around my family and friends for advice and it all seemed to be the same response 'STAY'. Stay for the experience, it will be a good look on your CV, you might learn something or you might even gain a job from it at the end. But my gut instinct was to leave. I just feel it's not time for me to go straight into work after uni so soon. I need to enjoy the most of this 'holiday' because practically we'll be working for the rest of our lives! And this will be the only time I'll ever have a real break from everything, and for the time being I'll just slowly decide what it is exactly that I want to do in life. Baby steps.

So follow your gut instincts people! Only you can know what is best for yourself. Your life, your decisions.

'Whatever decision you choose to make in life, believe its the right one, for you. Believe in yourself.'

FREEBIES!

Bet that caught your eye didn't it! Who doesn't love freebies are mahhhhd! I mean, it's free! Where can you go wrong?! But yeah the last two days I've managed to cop myself some freebies. They're nothing major or great but I'm so easily pleased!

Yesterday in Oxford street they were giving out some fruit bars called 'nakd' and the leaflet said 'get your smoosh on'. Its a snack bar of just pure fruits and nuts 'smooshed' together! Healthy stuff! The package was nice just like any fruit snack bar except it was pretty soft, opened the package and the bar itself looked like poop! literally, them fake poop you' use for pranks. Curiosity got the best of me and I went for it anywyas..YUM! It was really nice! Or maybe because I was hungry that it tasted better than it actually is. 

Later on I went past a Millies Cookies and remembered my cousin told me about a O2 priority moment where you can receive 4 free cookies! Yep, 4! Winning! Slight embarrassment when my 3G wasn't working for a bit >< but I made sure we got them cookies in the end! Also...went into The Body Shop and bought 'tea tree night lotion' that will hopefully leave me free from blemishes and spots. Got 30% off with thanks to O2! I have been hearing a lot of good reviews on 'tea tree' products so lets hope this does miracles on a face like mine! 

Today I went to some make up convention 'SMASHBOX' I am absolutely clueless when it comes to make up..only just learnt what a primer is and till don't know what bb cream is =/ Anyway they were giving away goody bags yayyy..inside they had lip gloss, primer, highlight pen, compact mirror and they also gave a balloon where you had to pop it and mascara will fall out. They were constantly giving out coconut juice (vita coco I think it was called) and crisps. The exhibition was quite awkward at first because I didn't know how it went or what was happening but you basically go in and que up if you wanted your hair done or have a face make over for free, waited ages for ours but then they had to close before we even got seen to! Sadness. But they said they will make it up to us and send us more goodies! Which worked out because it was raining outside so our hair would have been ruined anyway.

Tomorrow, I'm planning on getting my free speaker from O2 as their 'thank you' after the whole system was down for a day some time ago. But it might have to wait seeing as the new iphone5 has come out and it's most likely it will be crazy packed!

If you're on O2 and still have not downloaded this app. You're missing out! Just search 'O2 Priority Moments' and boom! freebies and exclusive discounts! WINNING!

Stage 5.

All my life I've just followed procedures. The 'normal' route you'd take in life. Here's the breakdown of how it normally goes;

1.  Primary school
2. Secondary school
3. College
4. Uni
5. Work
6. Marriage
7. Kids
8. Life

Yep, this seems to be the correct order of life and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one out here that's gone through this (FYI I'm on stage 5). 

STAGE 5: This has got to be the most challenging and depressing stage. Mainly because I have just come out of uni with no experience within the field which I want to go into..which I'm not even sure what the field is at the moment :S Maybe I think I want to go into marketing because I just spent 3 years learning the darn thing.

I can't even decide on what career path I want to take, where I want to go or what I want to do. And since I can't answer these questions just yet, what exactly should I be applying for? Most of the desirable jobs I have come across has required years of experience and to top it off, they place a WHOLE lot of jargon on the job description! Which is a major turn off..I'm pretty sure that I am, as well as anyone else is, more than capable to carry out the duties with the correct training and within time. They just dress it all up for no reason; paper work turns in 'administration'.

Searching endlessly for jobs which you feel suits your skills best and then when you finally come across something..the application form. A minimum of 2 sided A4 paper which asks you, 'Why do you want to apply for this role'. Seriously? Are you really that bothered to read through X amount of 'Because I am passionate..' type answers? I wonder if I was to fill out an application with clear cut honest answers like, 'because I know I'm capable and the money looks decent so give me a chance, please?' Someone would appreciate the honesty and since they want the application to stand out, I'm pretty sure that'll stick out like a sore thumb!

And if the application form wasn't a drag enough, here comes the interview. The moment where you put on this front to convince the other person you're the best there is out there. No pressure. And in some cases that's just the beginning..you pass that, you'll be on to the 2nd interview out of 4. Biatchhh don't waste my time to be telling me I ain't good enough after the third stage! Getting my hopes up and all that anticipation for what? To be let down ¬¬ And back to square one!

This is actually becoming a depressing post haha! But I just wanted to show how long, tiring and demotivating job hunting can be! Employers need to give us folks a chance! 

There are more than enough jobs out there available and one of them is waiting for yo name!!

TO ALL GRADUATES ANYONE CURRENTLY JOB HUNTING..DO. NOT. GIVE. UP!!

Hello!

So its been almost a week or so since my first post and so much has happened with so much to say but I have not had the time to actually sit down and type it out. So here I am on a Friday night blogging, so wild.
A quick overall of what's been happening, I've started an internship which actually pays me quite well unlike others where they don't pay at all. And to top it off they are theeee most loveliest bunch of colleagues! My manager is actually such a lovely lady and rather patient with me too! The colleagues; I feel I have bonded well with, makes working there that much less of a drag. Although come to think of  it a 9-5 shift is actually not as bad as it sounds, whereas I feel a 4 hour shift in retail can feel like a lifetime! Anyways so far at this intern I have just been doing all the petty stuff, I think I'm just there to help with the workload as it becomes busy during September but I suppose I can make the most of it on my CV and hopefully I'll cop that dream job of mine! Which...I still have no clue on which career path to take! (But that'll take a whole new post!).
At one point during the week I thought I was a soldier and done a 9-5 shift and ran straight into my part time job and done a 6-10 shift..boy was I K.O'd! Seriously I would come home, eat, shower, sleep. The next morning I would feel like death! Lesson learnt. Oh and after one of those long ass day I met some crazy ass lady on the tube who just went on a mad one telling me to stop staring at her..she cray! Normally I would be scared because I hate conflict, confrontation and just all them bad vibes (plus she was bigger than me) but I was soooo tired I couldn't give a duck! That woman had issues and you don't mess with crazy people, no no. This is something you learn living in the South East. So I am now a complete full timer, working mon-fri including the weekends at my part time, work hard, play hard, though there's hardly any energy to be playing at all! =[ Apart from working constantly, I'm still trying to job hunt! This is such a bore and demotivating! Everything is just been job related right now, no fun! I wonder if there even is anyone out there who is bothered to read all this! If you've managed to make this far into my post and you're reading this very sentence now, slap yo self! Ha!

I won't make this post any longer than it already is, so toodles!

cupcake love xx